Not the most friendliest of phrases. Just looks bad…IVF, ivf, caps or not i don’t like it.
It’s not something we had really talked about and to be honest my husband and i were petrified. BUT we had at least 18 months of waiting so we had plenty of time to think!
Towards the end of 2007 my mam and i were shopping and over lunch she said ‘me and your dad want to pay for your IVF treatment so you can have it sooner and go private…’ i was so shocked. I had previously looked into going private but discarded that idea after seeing the price. Over £4k a go it wasn’t cheap. My mam had looked into it to and knew exactly how much it was. My parents didn’t have a great deal of money, it would be using some of their savings from the sale of their house. I felt a bit awful about taking it. I still do now to be honest. But they were adamant.
In early January 2008 we had our first IVF appointment at the London women’s clinic in Darlington. We were late, due to traffic which wasn’t a great start, to be honest i felt like i was attending a job interview. The first consultation alone was a few hundred pounds….it went well, as well as it could have gone really. We set the ball rolling to start our treatment asap.
I don’t really remember the whole process, but i will give it a go! First of all i had to take the pill, i can’t remember exactly how long for but because i didn’t have periods (only have about 1-2 a year) they needed me to take it, to then stop it, to create a bleed. While i was taking this i had a giant box of medication delivered to my house, i was so scared when i opened it, some of the needles looked massive. The daily injections actually didn’t hurt as much as i thought, the ones in the bum hurt more which is surprising! My hubby did all my injections, they showed him how to and he was fine doing them. There was also some pessaries to take (not nice) but not totally awful.
The extracting of eggs was fine, it didn’t hurt or anything and i could see on the monitor. They managed to get 11 eggs from me. Matt did his sample too and my eggs were fertilised using ICSI where the sperm was injected directly into the egg. 8 of the embryos were viable after ICSI. We were pleased.
On my first go of IVF in February 2008 i had 2 embryos put back in me. Then was the best bit, the 2 week wait….NOT. It was the longest 2 weeks of my life, or at least that’s what it felt like. Hubby and I went away in a log cabin for a break in the middle of the 2 week wait, we did nothing, i laid around all day and my husband pretty much waited on me hand and foot. We went for some short walks as had a dog, but the majority of the time i did nothing.
I would have done anything to make it work. Anything.
After the 2 weeks i took a pregnancy test, it was negative. I think the worst part was the fact that people knew, not everyone but obviously family knew and some friends, so they had the 2 week wait too, and then i had to let them all know it had been unsuccessful. I then had to wait for the bleed which came a couple of days after taking the test. I just felt empty. My husband kept it together for my sake i think. But he was hopeful that we should try again and see if it would work….